God, Teach Me To Pray.

“Dear God, teach me to pray. Let the holy spirit guide me in my prayer. Teach me to pray like the others”.
Dear God, why do i can’t pray like them?
I always questioned that to our God because that is my problem. I never can pray like other people. I can’t pray like my friends, like my family. Why? I keep asking God the same question and did God hear that? Did God hear my prayer because I can’t pray. Will my prayer ever reach his ears?
Dear God, did you hear me?
Sometime I feel like I want to cry when people ask me to pray. Sometime I feel like I want to run from them when the turn to pray came to me. I often feel sick, can’t breath, when my friends ask me to pray. Why am I like this? Why do I make this to stop me from praying?
Dear God, I want to pray like them.
I love to pray because I want to communicate with my god. I love to pray because I know God want me to talk with him. When I join a worship group, I can hear my friends pray. And their prayer is so powerful. The words that came out from their mouth is the word that i never  speak in my prayer. It so beautiful, powerful. And that make me feel jealous. I feel ashamed.
Dear God, teach me to pray.
I never stop asking this from god because i know that i don’t know how to pray. I know that the way i pray is wrong. I know that every time i pray, i keep asking something just for myself and i know that is wrong and selfish. I want to pray in the right way.
Every time i pray, i have to think what is the next words. My weakness, i really can’t pray. A friend come to me and she say, one day the holy spirit will guide your tongue so you don’t have to think the words. Praying is so wonderful when thee holy spirit is there. But how about me? Did the holy spirit guide my tongue? No. Because i need to think every word i want to say while I’m praying. So day and night i ask God, please let the holy spirit guide me while I’m praying. Day by day I start to believe that God is actually hear me no matter  how ugly it is my prayer.HAVE FAITH! Yeah, have faith. God say, good things come to those who wait. So I wait. Yeah God, I will wait.
My God, he teach me to pray.
Believe it or not, I think I’m blind because I never see it. When I ask him to teach me, He always answer me and he teach me. But I never understand it. Oh God, I’m sorry.
(MATTHEW 6: 5-13)
⁵ “And when you pray, do not be like the hypocrites, for they love to pray standing in the synagogues and on the street corners to be seen by others. Truly I tell you, they have received their reward in full.⁶ But when you pray, go into your room, close the door and pray to your Father, who is unseen. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you. ⁷ And when you pray, do not keep on babbling like pagans, for they think they will be heard because of their many words. ⁸ Do not be like them, for your Father knows what you need before you ask him.
⁹ “This, then, is how you should pray:

“‘Our Father in heaven,
hallowed be your name,
¹⁰ your kingdom come,
your will be done,
    on earth as it is in heaven.
¹¹ Give us today our daily bread.
¹² And forgive us our debts,
    as we also have forgiven our debtors.
¹³ And lead us not into temptation,^[a]
    but deliver us from the evil one.^[b]

Dear God, thank you, because you’ve always teaching me to pray. And I know and believe that you always hear my prayer even maybe my prayer is the most ugliest prayer that you’ve heard. Until today, I still can’t pray like other people, every time I’m praying I have to say sorry to God because I know I’m asking too much for myself.
Dear God, thank you so much for your love, for always hear me, for always with me no matter where I am. thank you because you teach me to pray. Thank you Father because you choose to save me. HALLELUJAH!
Amen….