God, Teach Me To Pray.

“Dear God, teach me to pray. Let the holy spirit guide me in my prayer. Teach me to pray like the others”.
Dear God, why do i can’t pray like them?
I always questioned that to our God because that is my problem. I never can pray like other people. I can’t pray like my friends, like my family. Why? I keep asking God the same question and did God hear that? Did God hear my prayer because I can’t pray. Will my prayer ever reach his ears?
Dear God, did you hear me?
Sometime I feel like I want to cry when people ask me to pray. Sometime I feel like I want to run from them when the turn to pray came to me. I often feel sick, can’t breath, when my friends ask me to pray. Why am I like this? Why do I make this to stop me from praying?
Dear God, I want to pray like them.
I love to pray because I want to communicate with my god. I love to pray because I know God want me to talk with him. When I join a worship group, I can hear my friends pray. And their prayer is so powerful. The words that came out from their mouth is the word that i never  speak in my prayer. It so beautiful, powerful. And that make me feel jealous. I feel ashamed.
Dear God, teach me to pray.
I never stop asking this from god because i know that i don’t know how to pray. I know that the way i pray is wrong. I know that every time i pray, i keep asking something just for myself and i know that is wrong and selfish. I want to pray in the right way.
Every time i pray, i have to think what is the next words. My weakness, i really can’t pray. A friend come to me and she say, one day the holy spirit will guide your tongue so you don’t have to think the words. Praying is so wonderful when thee holy spirit is there. But how about me? Did the holy spirit guide my tongue? No. Because i need to think every word i want to say while I’m praying. So day and night i ask God, please let the holy spirit guide me while I’m praying. Day by day I start to believe that God is actually hear me no matter  how ugly it is my prayer.HAVE FAITH! Yeah, have faith. God say, good things come to those who wait. So I wait. Yeah God, I will wait.
My God, he teach me to pray.
Believe it or not, I think I’m blind because I never see it. When I ask him to teach me, He always answer me and he teach me. But I never understand it. Oh God, I’m sorry.
(MATTHEW 6: 5-13)
⁵ “And when you pray, do not be like the hypocrites, for they love to pray standing in the synagogues and on the street corners to be seen by others. Truly I tell you, they have received their reward in full.⁶ But when you pray, go into your room, close the door and pray to your Father, who is unseen. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you. ⁷ And when you pray, do not keep on babbling like pagans, for they think they will be heard because of their many words. ⁸ Do not be like them, for your Father knows what you need before you ask him.
⁹ “This, then, is how you should pray:

“‘Our Father in heaven,
hallowed be your name,
¹⁰ your kingdom come,
your will be done,
    on earth as it is in heaven.
¹¹ Give us today our daily bread.
¹² And forgive us our debts,
    as we also have forgiven our debtors.
¹³ And lead us not into temptation,^[a]
    but deliver us from the evil one.^[b]

Dear God, thank you, because you’ve always teaching me to pray. And I know and believe that you always hear my prayer even maybe my prayer is the most ugliest prayer that you’ve heard. Until today, I still can’t pray like other people, every time I’m praying I have to say sorry to God because I know I’m asking too much for myself.
Dear God, thank you so much for your love, for always hear me, for always with me no matter where I am. thank you because you teach me to pray. Thank you Father because you choose to save me. HALLELUJAH!
Amen….

"my sheep hear my voice, and I know them, and they follow me", (John 10:27)

When a shepherd lost his sheep, what will he do? Will he just leave the lost sheep or he will find it and wait for the lost sheep to come home?
A good shepherd will never leave his sheep behind and he will always protecting all his sheep from any danger, hunter, wolf or anything that can harm his sheep. A good shepherd will always count his sheep before he take them home because he is afraid if  he leave one sheep behind. When he found out that he lost one of his sheep, he will walk and search for the sheep until he found it. This is because a good shepherd love his sheep.

"Lord is my shepherd".
When Father in heaven sent his only son to this world, he became a shepherd and his sheep is we all in this world. We are the sinful person. For those who believe in him will hear his voice, will see his light, will feel his love.
Jesus came down to this world not just to die on the cross, but he came to save us, to save all the lost sheep, to give love, to bring the light so we can walk in the right way, and he die for our sin because he want to give us an eternal life with his Father, our Father in heaven. "For God so loved the world that he gave his only son, that whoever believe in him shall not perish but have eternal life." ( John 3:6)


When Jesus says "my sheep hear my voice, and I know them, and they follow me," mean we are his lost sheep. We cannot find our way home and we walk in the dark so that make us lost. We walk for a million miles away in the wrong direction and in the dark. We try to find our way, we search and we wait for someone to come and save us, but sometimes we fail. And that will make us lost and fall down.
But, God really loves us because no matter how far we walk and leave him far behind, he will still calling for us and he will always try to give his light so we can find our way home to be with him again.
God is so love, he sent his only son to bring us home.
Before this I never know that we are not searching for God but God search for us. When I become a christian, I believe that I found God because I search for him. Until one day, someone told me that it is not us who search for God but God search for us.This is because God really love his people. For those who believe in him will always feel his love and will feel that there is joy in their heart. Because God fill all the believers with his holy spirit and his greatest love.
God is just like the good shepherd because he never leave us alone, he never forget us, he never hate us, but he always love us, searching and calling for us. Knocking our heart because he want to get in and live in us.
When God found us and we follow him, we will see the very bright light and that light will always help us walk in the right direction.
When God has come to our life, we will never feel empty, thirsty and hungry anymore because God will gave us food. God will always give his love, will always hug us. There will be no more darkness and we will never walk alone again because God is there.

Give thanks to God for everything and Praise the lord for everything.
Amen.

Jesus Our Healer

A few years ago, I was someone else. I'm lost in the dark side of my life. A few years ago, I was very different than today. If u ever know me before than you will know that I'm not 100% change but I am changing. There so much different in me. Well I'm not proud of myself but this mean that God has come to me and touch my heart. It is nice to know God. It is great to feel his love. I feel so lucky because God has come. And now this is my desire, to know and to get more closer to God. I'm addicted in this. Chasing God's love is just like an adventure for me. 

A few years ago, I am the lost sheep. I walk in the wrong direction. I walk in the darkness. I never realize it. Why this happen to me? Sometime i feel bad so I ask God, "Why this happen to me? Where are you?" I can't feel his love or maybe i just didn't realize it. All I can see is the greatest of this world. Does this world really can give me that much of happiness? I don't think so because if so why I still feel hurt? Like what some people said to me, the happiness of this world is just for a while. But nobody ever tell me that there is an everlasting love. Emm..maybe there is but i never realize it because i was so blind and so deaf. I can't see the light that God has give to me to brighten my way. I can't hear his voice. I can't feel his love.

Because I'm searching for happiness in this world. I'm searching for love but the love I want is not from God. I want it from human. There is the mistake and there is where it all start.

But God never leave me. I've leave him. I make him sad but he never leave me. He always there when i need him. He always answer me when I call him. But it just me, I always give up with God. I never wait for the answer. And the result is, I fall into the deep ravine. I feel hard in there. I'm trying to get up but I always fall. where is my faith? I have no faith in me. For one moment i feel so happy with my life. I laugh and I smile for all the time. I'm so happy and i thought that it is the happiness that God give for me. but I was wrong. It is the happiness from this world. For one moment, i'm free to fly like a bird. I have friends beside me. I have family. And I have a guy to love me. For me, this is life. I thought that my life is complete. But I never think that I walk to fast from god. I leave him behind me. Because I have friends and my guy. This life is full of love but the love is not from God. 

I'm too young to understand. A young teen girl. I am hunger for love and happiness. I never realize that it was wrong and when I start to realize it was too late. I make a big mistake in my life and I can't get it back. I can't turn back the time. And when all that happen, everyone start to leave me. My friends, my boyfriend. Everyone is gone. 

But one guy, never leave me. I believe that he is the guy that God send to me to bring me back to him because I can't hear God, I can't see him and i can't feel his love. I can't realize if God is standing next to me. So I believe that God has send this guy for me because God know and trust him that he can bring me home. He is the child of God. A child that has lost before and save by the father in heaven. 

Everyday I thanks God because God give me a very good friend that always there for me when I need someone, when I feel sad, when I feel bad, when i'm in trouble. He always there.

Everything is changed when I start to realize that God is talking to me by him. God is healing me by him. God is telling me something by him. The moment I realize that, I ask myself, "How can i so blind to know all this?"

Yea. I was so blind. I was so deaf. He was there with me for almost three years but I never see something special there. 

We have become friend for many years and he never leave me after all what happen to me. For everything I've done. He always accept me for who I am because for him there is nobody perfect in this world and there's nobody in this world is never done any mistake because he is the same with me before. And that's why we can be together. We have something about our past. We are broken. We lost but God found us. We are the lost sheep. God found us. God bring us back to him. 

God heal the broken heart. God search for the lost. God feed for the hunger. 

I believe that God is always with us. Watching for us and listening to us. I thanks to God because he call me back to him and today I'm still alive with a new heart. I feel lucky because God heal me with his love. Now I found my happiness. I found my true love. I got it from God the father. I'm still new in this life and i still can fall down once I start a mistake so everyday I pray to God to help me and to held my hand because i don't want to leave him anymore. I don't want to walk in front of him. I don't want to walk behind him. But I want to walk with him, next to him. That is my desire. Chasing after the kingdom of God. To understand and to get closer to God.

I thanks to God for this great life, for this great love. 

AMEN.

He's words..

Question: "What did Jesus mean when He said, “Take up your cross and follow Me” (Matthew 16:24; Mark 8:34; Luke 9:23)?"


Answer: Let’s begin with what Jesus didn’t mean. Many people interpret “cross” as some burden they must carry in their lives: a strained relationship, a thankless job, a physical illness. With self-pitying pride, they say, “That’s my cross I have to carry.” Such an interpretation is not what Jesus meant when He said, “Take up your cross and follow Me.”

When Jesus carried His cross up Golgotha to be crucified, no one was thinking of the cross as symbolic of a burden to carry. To a person in the first-century, the cross meant one thing and one thing only: death by the most painful and humiliating means human beings could develop.

Two thousand years later, Christians view the cross as a cherished symbol of atonement, forgiveness, grace, and love. But in Jesus’ day, the cross represented nothing but torturous death. Because the Romans forced convicted criminals to carry their own crosses to the place of crucifixion, bearing a cross meant carrying their own execution device while facing ridicule along the way to death.

Therefore, “Take up your cross and follow Me” means being willing to die in order to follow Jesus. This is called “dying to self.” It’s a call to absolute surrender. After each time Jesus commanded cross bearing, He said, “For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me will save it. What good is it for a man to gain the whole world, and yet lose or forfeit his very self?” (Luke 9:24-25). Although the call is tough, the reward is matchless.

Wherever Jesus went, He drew crowds. Although these multitudes often followed Him as Messiah, their view of who the Messiah really was—and what He would do—was distorted. They thought the Christ would usher in the restored kingdom. They believed He would free them from the oppressive rule of their Roman occupiers. Even Christ’s own inner circle of disciples thought the kingdom was coming soon (Luke 19:11). When Jesus began teaching that He was going to die at the hands of the Jewish leaders and their Gentile overlords (Luke 9:22), His popularity sank. Many of the shocked followers rejected Him. Truly, they were not able to put to death their own ideas, plans, and desires, and exchange them for His.

Following Jesus is easy when life runs smoothly; our true commitment to Him is revealed during trials. Jesus assured us that trials will come to His followers (John 16:33). Discipleship demands sacrifice, and Jesus never hid that cost.

In Luke 9:57-62, three people seemed willing to follow Jesus. When Jesus questioned them further, their commitment was half-hearted at best. They failed to count the cost of following Him. None was willing to take up his cross and crucify upon it his own interests.

Therefore, Jesus appeared to dissuade them. How different from the typical Gospel presentation! How many people would respond to an altar call that went, “Come follow Jesus, and you may face the loss of friends, family, reputation, career, and possibly even your life”? The number of false converts would likely decrease! Such a call is what Jesus meant when He said, “Take up your cross and follow Me.”

If you wonder if you are ready to take up your cross, consider these questions:
• Are you willing to follow Jesus if it means losing some of your closest friends?
• Are you willing to follow Jesus if it means alienation from your family?
• Are you willing to follow Jesus if it means the loss of your reputation?
• Are you willing to follow Jesus if it means losing your job?
• Are you willing to follow Jesus if it means losing your life?

In some places of the world, these consequences are reality. But notice the questions are phrased, “Are you willing?” Following Jesus doesn’t necessarily mean all these things will happen to you, but are you willing take up your cross? If there comes a point in your life where you are faced with a choice—Jesus or the comforts of this life—which will you choose?

Commitment to Christ means taking up your cross daily, giving up your hopes, dreams, possessions, even your very life if need be for the cause of Christ. Only if you willingly take up your cross may you be called His disciple (Luke 14:27). The reward is worth the price. Jesus followed His call of death to self (“Take up your cross and follow Me”) with the gift of life in Christ: “For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me will find it” (Matthew 16:25-26).

The Voice Inside My Head...

when i say no..
the voice will say yes..
when i say i can't..
the voice will say..no u must..
the voice is ruin me..
the voices change me..
my life..
it's different..
but i don't believe in it..
because i still can think..
i still can do my normal life..
there's nothing change..
so that's mean i'm ok..
don't worry..
the voice make me think about something that i should not think..
who am i?..
i'm too paranoid..
because the voice in my head..
i'm too scared..
it is the voice of the devil..
i know it..
i need to get it out from my life..
but how?..
day by day..
i will pray..
i just can pray..
ask for help from him..
because..
i am normal..

i wanna be normal like who i am before..

God Is Love...

God. who is he? Did anybody know him? Did anybody see him before? God. Jesus. He's the son of god. Who die for our sin, to forgive our sin and to give us an eternal life with him and the father in heaven.
I am just a girl, a teenage girl with a normal life. I am a Christian but i still need a help because my life is so miserable. Day by day, my life become more worse. I never thought that i will become like this. I never thought that i will have to face it.
I'm not strong. But i never give up with my life..
I smile everyday. But sometime, all the smile is just a fake smile because inside me, it's bleeding. All i need is God. So pray a lot to God. Invite him to come in me. But i still never feel it. There's is nothing change but all the trouble is coming. Pushing me. I cry everyday. God say in the bible, if your heart is full of darkness, you will be blind because of the darkness make me blind.
Because of the trouble that comes and go, i never stop praying. I ask but still there's nothing happen. So i ask to myself. What else should i do. Maybe i'm wrong. Maybe i'm asking too much. Maybe i ask for something more to my self-interest. Maybe. Sometime, i wanna give up. But that time i will speak to my self that i'm still can. But i always cry. All i can do is just speak to my boyfriend. But what did i got if i tell him. Maybe i will feel good just for a while but it will come back again. All my boyfriend can say is just trust him and ask him why all this happen.  I ask, but maybe the way i ask is not the right way.
But, i know that God never leave me. I trust that he always be by my side. I know, he's watching for me. I know he's listen to me. I know he can hear the voice from my heart. I know, he knew it.
But what's wrong,  why am I still with this life?
Than, here comes. All the devil in my mind. I'm changing. I become more worse until sometime i feel like i'm gonna be crazy soon. I'm scared. Too scared. I don't wanna be crazy. I ask God. What else should I do?
And today, ( 21 January 2011), i feel so happy because i'm going to a prayer meeting. I feel very missing God.
God is great. He works using someone else to speak his words.
i listen carefully..
it's been a long time i haven't happy so much.
It's been a long time i haven't laugh so happily..
God is trying to tell me..and this time i listen to him. Very clear. He talk to me. No..It's not him. But Jenny. But, that words is belong to God.
So i know, It was God. He's there. With us. and he have touch me with his love.
Now i listen to what god say..finally..i understand it..
He want me to trust him..
He want me to comeback to him and walk with him..
He want me to ask from him not from others..
He tell me, that why he do this..why he give all the problem..because, by doing that, I will come to him, I will thinking about him, I will be missing him..
He tell me that, don't worry, because I will always be with you..
Thank you O'Lord..
Thank you..
I love you so much..
Please hold me forever..don't leave me..

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